Ok ... I am going to take advantage of the opportunity to opening vent about a few things...
There are people who think that being single is a bad thing, because I guess it goes against what society expects of us all. Well .. I tell myself all the time that no wonder I'm still single. I refuse to compromise my personal happiness for a sub-par life.
So .. first of all, straight men are completely clueless when it comes to dealing with females. You'd think they would have learned by now, but no they have not a clue. If gay men would start liking women again, well I would have been married years ago. But, instead I have to deal with what I deal with all the time.
Here's the deal ... all females like male attention, in general. However, while we like the attention, if you let us know wrong, .. well you've just ruined it altogether. 9 times out of 10 when I get hit on it comes across so completely wrong that it just annoys the crap out of me. I'll give examples.
Did I write about the guy who asked me if I wanted to get dirty with him? I think so .. well that is example number 1. Example number 2 would be the guys in the elevator the other day. At first they're nice and we're talking as we're waiting for the elevator. Then the great conversation turns pig-headed when they ask me to marry them because I'm hot ... wow .. they're IQ just hit the floor in about 1.5 seconds. WTF?! Today was a guy who was hitting on me and using the analogy of me and a piece of candy .. OMG did that just come out of a grown man's mouth???
No point in mentioning more, but trust me I have more stories as of late than anything .. I think the lonely horny men have come out of hibernation now because I have been wearing oversized sweatshirts, hats, and baggy pants in a failed attempt to get the pervs to leave me alone. I thought it was bad when I was younger but I honestly think it happens more now than before .. is someone trying to torture me?!
So .. what's wrong with hitting on females? Well nothing if it's done right. In my case, while I like to be looked at, I HATE it when that's the only thing people notice about me, because I know there's more to me than that. Granted you can't find that out unless you talk to someone but these guys kill it before it even gets to that point. But it's insulting to me because I have worked so hard to be where I'm at, yet I still get looked at for face value.
Here's a good example. There's a guy who works at Starbucks that I always see. The first time I met him, when I pulled up to the window he was asking about my day, if anything fun was happening, etc. We then get into school, and sports, and so on from there. A 3 minute conversation, but at the end of it I felt great because this guy was actually interested, cared, and we actually had a conversation, which almost never happens.
Maybe that's the problem .. most people don't care to dig deeper, unless they have instant validation that it's worth it. It's always small talk, from the start and for an indefinite amount of time.
Why is it that we meet people and we either want all or nothing with them? Why don't we meet people and talk to them hoping for friendship at the least? What's wrong with getting personal?
Along the same lines, maybe that's my problem .. I want to see the 'more' and when I can tell it's not right there from the start, I immediately kill any chances of it going anywhere. Which may be on target sometimes, but maybe every once in a while a good guy comes along and they behave that way not because of who they are, but because we tend to follow suit with the stereotypes. So maybe I'll attempt to be more open, trying to give people more of the benefit of the doubt.
On a different topic, I am getting completely annoyed with myself. Like above, I tend to "think" too much. Not just about that, but about everything. I think so much that I have to wear myself out at night so I can go to bed. That, on top of that fact that I've been (and still am) sick, it's wearing me out.
I had a 20 minute conversation the other day about something I've been thinking of. Granted I think it's a pretty interesting perspective / topic and I think the person agreed. However afterwards I stopped and thought to myself .. I cannot believe that I've put so much thought and effort into something so minute and taken for granted. I must be mad!!
So .. I have no idea how to stop thinking so much, but I'd love to figure out a way to do so. I don't take sleeping pills because I personally think they are unsafe, however that would probably help me at night... although again they're not an option for me.
Anyway I don't know what I'm going to do, but I think or hope that calming myself down, as far as thinking, may help me get better from whatever the heck is wrong with me. Maybe not, but I figure it's worth a try ...
Ok .. it may seem as if I'm completely breaking this blog off mid-conversation, and that's because I am .. I gotta go!
There are people who think that being single is a bad thing, because I guess it goes against what society expects of us all. Well .. I tell myself all the time that no wonder I'm still single. I refuse to compromise my personal happiness for a sub-par life.
So .. first of all, straight men are completely clueless when it comes to dealing with females. You'd think they would have learned by now, but no they have not a clue. If gay men would start liking women again, well I would have been married years ago. But, instead I have to deal with what I deal with all the time.
Here's the deal ... all females like male attention, in general. However, while we like the attention, if you let us know wrong, .. well you've just ruined it altogether. 9 times out of 10 when I get hit on it comes across so completely wrong that it just annoys the crap out of me. I'll give examples.
Did I write about the guy who asked me if I wanted to get dirty with him? I think so .. well that is example number 1. Example number 2 would be the guys in the elevator the other day. At first they're nice and we're talking as we're waiting for the elevator. Then the great conversation turns pig-headed when they ask me to marry them because I'm hot ... wow .. they're IQ just hit the floor in about 1.5 seconds. WTF?! Today was a guy who was hitting on me and using the analogy of me and a piece of candy .. OMG did that just come out of a grown man's mouth???
No point in mentioning more, but trust me I have more stories as of late than anything .. I think the lonely horny men have come out of hibernation now because I have been wearing oversized sweatshirts, hats, and baggy pants in a failed attempt to get the pervs to leave me alone. I thought it was bad when I was younger but I honestly think it happens more now than before .. is someone trying to torture me?!
So .. what's wrong with hitting on females? Well nothing if it's done right. In my case, while I like to be looked at, I HATE it when that's the only thing people notice about me, because I know there's more to me than that. Granted you can't find that out unless you talk to someone but these guys kill it before it even gets to that point. But it's insulting to me because I have worked so hard to be where I'm at, yet I still get looked at for face value.
Here's a good example. There's a guy who works at Starbucks that I always see. The first time I met him, when I pulled up to the window he was asking about my day, if anything fun was happening, etc. We then get into school, and sports, and so on from there. A 3 minute conversation, but at the end of it I felt great because this guy was actually interested, cared, and we actually had a conversation, which almost never happens.
Maybe that's the problem .. most people don't care to dig deeper, unless they have instant validation that it's worth it. It's always small talk, from the start and for an indefinite amount of time.
Why is it that we meet people and we either want all or nothing with them? Why don't we meet people and talk to them hoping for friendship at the least? What's wrong with getting personal?
Along the same lines, maybe that's my problem .. I want to see the 'more' and when I can tell it's not right there from the start, I immediately kill any chances of it going anywhere. Which may be on target sometimes, but maybe every once in a while a good guy comes along and they behave that way not because of who they are, but because we tend to follow suit with the stereotypes. So maybe I'll attempt to be more open, trying to give people more of the benefit of the doubt.
On a different topic, I am getting completely annoyed with myself. Like above, I tend to "think" too much. Not just about that, but about everything. I think so much that I have to wear myself out at night so I can go to bed. That, on top of that fact that I've been (and still am) sick, it's wearing me out.
I had a 20 minute conversation the other day about something I've been thinking of. Granted I think it's a pretty interesting perspective / topic and I think the person agreed. However afterwards I stopped and thought to myself .. I cannot believe that I've put so much thought and effort into something so minute and taken for granted. I must be mad!!
So .. I have no idea how to stop thinking so much, but I'd love to figure out a way to do so. I don't take sleeping pills because I personally think they are unsafe, however that would probably help me at night... although again they're not an option for me.
Anyway I don't know what I'm going to do, but I think or hope that calming myself down, as far as thinking, may help me get better from whatever the heck is wrong with me. Maybe not, but I figure it's worth a try ...
Ok .. it may seem as if I'm completely breaking this blog off mid-conversation, and that's because I am .. I gotta go!
