I knew it was happening and I'm still trying to find my way out ... I'm in the midst of a horribly long and painful photography slump. I'd say it slowly started back last August and it hit it's worst in December. Ever since then, it's been just a steady unwaivering slump ...
Of course, going on vacation doesn't count .. it's easy to find 'life' when it's not in the every day.
Being sick and STUCK IN THIS D@MN HOUSE all week, I've had more than enough time to browse through my photos .. the thousands of photos wasting away on my hard drive. While I was living in the world of Denial, it hit me hard that I'm neck deep in this slump.
So here are my failed efforts to pull me out of my slump:
So, over Memorial Day weekend we went to the Newport Aquarium. I took maybe 20 pictures and I may only like 3 of them. The rest I took purely because I felt silly having a paperweight hanging around my neck.
Of course my goal for this summer is to roam the area and see what I'm missing ... I have not been able to do that much yet. Partly because things have been too busy lately and I have not had a free day. Partly because I can only go so far because of the kids at home. Partly because I'm going gung ho at the gym in an effort to lose my ass once and for all. And .. partly because I'm making up every excuse I can think of because I honestly have no inspiration / motivation / you name it. I make up excuses for not taking photos and for not working in my yard. While I can (and will) pay someone to do the yard work for me .. I can't pay someone to find my missing inspiration ...
So ... here I sit today thinking what am I going to do?? I keep trying to figure out now if it was all a phase or was it really something, and I'm letting that slip away without even trying to salvage it. It can't just be a phase ... I find so much peace and so much joy when I'm out on adventures, taking photos. So, does that mean I'm being self destructive, and stopping myself from being happy and doing something that I like?
I don't know the answer .. obviously ..
On one hand, I can contribute my lack of adventuring to the fact that I'm without reliable photo taking friends. But ... I'm also on a shortage of gym - accompanying friends, although that's not stopping me. So maybe I'm not at my breaking point yet?? So many questions.
But, it's clear ... I'm in a funk and I apparently am not going to work it out on my own, because it has yet to happen. I guess while I'm sitting here, bored, miserable, and not in the best condition I could hope for, I'll try and plot out a way to work through this. I'll be glad when I get back to work ....
Of course, going on vacation doesn't count .. it's easy to find 'life' when it's not in the every day.
Being sick and STUCK IN THIS D@MN HOUSE all week, I've had more than enough time to browse through my photos .. the thousands of photos wasting away on my hard drive. While I was living in the world of Denial, it hit me hard that I'm neck deep in this slump.
So here are my failed efforts to pull me out of my slump:
- I went out and bought a second DSLR, the Nikon D1X. I needed a second camera anyway and I got a good deal on it.
- I went to San Fran .. hoping that a change of scenery would send me home more inspired. It sent me home wanting to move out of town...
So, over Memorial Day weekend we went to the Newport Aquarium. I took maybe 20 pictures and I may only like 3 of them. The rest I took purely because I felt silly having a paperweight hanging around my neck.
Of course my goal for this summer is to roam the area and see what I'm missing ... I have not been able to do that much yet. Partly because things have been too busy lately and I have not had a free day. Partly because I can only go so far because of the kids at home. Partly because I'm going gung ho at the gym in an effort to lose my ass once and for all. And .. partly because I'm making up every excuse I can think of because I honestly have no inspiration / motivation / you name it. I make up excuses for not taking photos and for not working in my yard. While I can (and will) pay someone to do the yard work for me .. I can't pay someone to find my missing inspiration ...
So ... here I sit today thinking what am I going to do?? I keep trying to figure out now if it was all a phase or was it really something, and I'm letting that slip away without even trying to salvage it. It can't just be a phase ... I find so much peace and so much joy when I'm out on adventures, taking photos. So, does that mean I'm being self destructive, and stopping myself from being happy and doing something that I like?
I don't know the answer .. obviously ..
On one hand, I can contribute my lack of adventuring to the fact that I'm without reliable photo taking friends. But ... I'm also on a shortage of gym - accompanying friends, although that's not stopping me. So maybe I'm not at my breaking point yet?? So many questions.
But, it's clear ... I'm in a funk and I apparently am not going to work it out on my own, because it has yet to happen. I guess while I'm sitting here, bored, miserable, and not in the best condition I could hope for, I'll try and plot out a way to work through this. I'll be glad when I get back to work ....
